Motivation to work

不能进去

今晚我回家，要去听那个中国诗人，但是有太多人，所以他们不让我进去。没办法。明天有另外个机会。我的中文不够好，我不能说我要说的事。

好朋友

今天我的朋友给我打电话！她是美国人，但是我在中国认识她。我很想她，所以我很高兴。然后我回家，休息一下。工作有一点无聊。我非常喜欢我的老板。只是我不想再这里很久工作。我要去另外个地方。我很想教书。我爱当老师。没办法。下次可能再当老师。明天我要去看我家人。在我妈妈的工作，（我们的大学）有一个中国诗人。我会去看他。下次再见啊。

税

今天我很累。上个星期我需要付很多钱，因为我们要给政府税。哎呀他们要太多钱。我没有一千三百美元。现在我没钱。所以我很生气的。但是我的老板请我吃午饭。所以今天不错。现在我在喝咖啡，看书。没意思。

For the Bible tells me so...

I was reading Ecclesiastes today, and I came across this, "I have seen everything in this meaningless life, including the death of good young people and the long life of wicked people. So don't be too good or too wise!"

The Green Fields of France

我喜欢这首歌。

没意思

我在用我妈妈的电脑。我在家。从我到美国的时候我一直很早起床。今天我五点半起床。我不想这么早起来但是没有办法。现在我没有太多可以说。我的生活有一点无聊，因为我只在找个工作。如果我找到，一定会告诉你们。现在我在芝加哥找工作。如果别的地方有机会那就好了。好，我要去吃早饭。拜拜。

I was on my mother's computer. I am at home. From me to the United States when I had to get up early. Today I got up at five thirty. I do not want to get up early, but no way. Now I do not have much to say. My life a bit boring, because I only get a job. If I find, will tell you. Now I was in Chicago looking for work. If other places have the opportunity to do well. Well, I want to eat breakfast.  Bye.

写的不多

今天我做早饭，然后我跟很多朋友去打橄榄球。我觉得打橄榄球跟中国人很搞笑。六点我们去市区吃饭。我还没准备好我星期四的课。明天我们要去秭归看端午种族。一定很好玩。

Today I made breakfast, and then I play football with a lot of friends. I think playing football with the Chinese people are very funny. 6:00 We go downtown to eat. I'm not ready I am at class. Tomorrow we are going to look at the Dragon Boat Festival Zigui Race. Must be fun.

I'm famous!

有一些朋友要我翻译我的博客，所以我决定我会让google翻译。他们的翻译很搞笑。你看。
最近我的电脑不要开始。前天我不能用。我觉得我常常跟电子有问题。我讨厌计算机。
今天我教小孩。他们真可爱。我们的大学请我们出去拉夫廷 ，但是我有一节课。我上课以前去肯德基吃饭。那个服务员问我很多问题。她说：“你呆在中国多久了？”而且她问：“你是三峡大学的老师，是吗？”等等。我跟她聊天然后她说：“我知道，你的名字叫Katie，是不是？”哈哈。我不知道她怎么知道我的名字。我以前不认识她。 很奇怪。我很有名。
下课的时候我到茶城去逛街。晚上我跟Jessica去吃饭，然后我们到南苑去跟我好朋友，张夏青玩一会儿。以后，我跟三个朋友去吃烧烤。
Some friends asked me to translate my blog, so I decided I'll google translation. Their translation is very funny. Look.
Recently, my computer will not start. The day before yesterday I can not. I think I always have problems with the electronic. I hate computers.
Today, I teach kids. They are adorable. Our university invited us to go out Rafting, but I have a class. I go to KFC to eat before class. The waiter asked me many questions. She said: "How long you stay in China?" And she asked: "You are the Three Gorges University, a teacher, is it?" And so on. I Genta Liao days and then she said: "I know that your name is Katie, is not it?" Haha. I do not know how she knew my name. I did not know her. Strange. I am famous.
Class city, when I went to tea, go shopping. I told Jessica to dinner at night, and then we went to South Garden to talk to my good friend, Zhang Xiaqing play for a while. After I eat barbecue with three friends.

practice schmactice

最近过的很忙。我找不到时间写这里。今天是礼拜天，但是我们有课，因为在中国节日的时候平常需要加班。我觉得这个主意很发疯的。 我们今晚聚会，我发生这是所有的人最后次来一起聚会。下一次一些朋友不在。 星期一Jessica要回去美国。我不要让她离开。

星期五我们去过唱KTV。很好玩。等一下。。。可能是昨晚。我不记得。哈哈。我太忙了，我不清楚这是星期几。

哎哟，我很累。但是现在我在跟我印度朋友，Oswin，聊天。很久没看到他。所以我不要睡觉。

我在想我住在中国的时候。我为我们的父亲感谢好多事情。我爱这个国家！

Day 2

天终于晴了！ 所以今天我当然很开心。 我只有两节课。我真爱我的学生。我跟他们准备他们的考试。他们很聪明所以不担心。 我也准备考试。我这个月再考汉语水平考试。 我觉得这次应该过三级。

下课以后我好朋友来我家吃饭。我做美国中菜。哈哈。他们说跟中菜不一样但是他们喜欢。很多人来我家唱歌和读书。

今天我还没学中文，但是我不要。明天就可以。我太懒了。 明天有一点忙，下次我告诉你我做设么。那我们明天见吧。：D

That's right, I'm now blogging in Chinese!

我跟我朋友说好我们每天都会写一些中文，让我们练习。 所以今天是我第一次来写。 因为我的中文还不好，我先会写我每天做的事。 如果一天我进步一点，可能写比较有趣的事。 我觉得我一定写错了但是我不在乎。没关系。

那我开始吧。 今天我朋友从宜都来玩。我在夷陵广场见她们。我们先去CBD逛街。我们吃饭然后看了电影。那个电影没有英文所以大部分的我听不懂。但是没事。很喜欢‎看。

我们看了钢铁侠2以后我跟她们一起去必胜客喝咖啡。她们的学生来和我们学一本很好的书。可能是我最后次来看这些朋友。因为我快回美国。她们也是。一定会很想她们。

现在我在听音乐（The Wallflowers）和准备明天的课。 我不太高兴。 这个月对我很难。因为去年六月二十日是我生活最难的天。 再者我不要想这件事情。没办法呢？ 我希望我妹妹或者我好好的朋友是跟我在宜昌。但是如果没办法应该想另外的事。明天是新的天。一定会比较好。

我喜欢写中文因为只有很少朋友会看得懂。如果他们了解没问题。但是我不太要所有的朋友看这个。哈哈。这个主意很不错。

晚安。

the truth

It turns out I'm so good at pretending I fool even myself.  I don't realize how I'm really doing until someone takes me by surprise.  For the most part I feel like I've been handling this year pretty well.  But tonight after our study Fe walked up to me and casually asked, "How's your brother?"  I felt like someone had just kicked me in the stomach.  I stuttered, "My brother?" because I thought surely he knew.  But he persisted, "Yeah.  Chris told me something happened..."  I took a deep breath and said the sentence in Chinese.  I had to learn it in Chinese because it is less real to me.  I'm not capable of saying those words in English.  But if I say them in Chinese they don't really exist, not in my mind.  They're some abstract idea that has no place in reality.

Apparently I handle things well because I prepare for them mentally.  But when someone unexpectedly reminds me I fall apart.  I spent the rest of the night sobbing uncontrollably.  So much for being strong.

shameless audacity

"Suppose you have a friend, and you go to him at midnight and say, 'Friend, lend me three loaves of bread; a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have nothing to set before him.'  And suppose the one inside answers, 'Don't bother me.  The door is already locked, and my children and I are in bed.  I can't get up and give you anything.'  I tell you, even though he will not get up and give you the bread because of friendship, yet because of your shameless audacity he will surely get up and give you as much as you need.

So I say to you:  Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives, those who seek find; and to those who knock, the door will be opened.

Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead?  Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion?  If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him?"

So keep asking.  Be shameless.  Be audacious.

In other news I'm not sure I want to go back to America.